Time to face the reality! No more hiding...

Over the past 3 weeks, I was in great dilemma for my present job...Frankly speaking, I had the idea of quitting few days ago as I've never felt so depressed before. Yes, it's a drastic change, a great opportunity for me to equip myself with new technology and skills for a better future...(sounds really fascinating yeh!) I lost my appetite, lost the interest to know what is happening around me, lost the motivation to learn about anything, lost the faith that I used to have, lost my sense of humour...

Well, some of you might think 'HOW BAD CAN THE SITUATION BE?'...It's not that bad actually, I guess the problem is 'myself'...I didn't want to face the problem and didn't want to find ways to resolve it coz I just hate to think about it. Since when I behave like a 'chicken'...Hmm...

'ArmyBee' is always there for me when I'm feeling blue & down...I bet I have given him a real hardtime too...From yesterday onwards, I promised him and myself that I will face the challenge and not avoiding it. I can't make him dissapointed again coz he has done so so much for me...

When can I get over it??

I have been working at my present company for almost 3 weeks...Honestly speaking, I have night mares almost everynite. I was awaken from sleep around 5-6am everyday...(I don't know why...) Am I pressuring myself too much? I wondered...

My ex-colleagues and good buddies always comforted me whenever I told them my sad experience. I didn't quite like one of my senior colleague as the way and tone she speaks is always not that friendly...She always show her blacky face, no smile...and I have to seek her guidance and assistance every now and then. Oh Man...

I always have these thoughts spinning around my mind: 'I'm not smart enough..', 'I don't know anything about IT...','I am not hardworking enough...','I am not an IT person...' Gee, I lost my faith and confidence totally. I am very thankful to my ex-colleagues and my 'little sunshine' who always be there for me during my transition period. I miss you all...

Ways towards Beautiful...

This section is not only for girl...but to all the gentleman out there who wants to live a beautiful lifestyle!!! "There's indeed no ugly woman/man in this world...only lazy woman/man"

1. Take a good shower in the morning
2. Groom yourself...gals, don't be lazy to at least put on mascara, blusher and lip gloss. Apply some wax, leave-on conditioner, anti-frizzy hair solution to avoid bad hair day...Guys, make sure you shave well, dress up neat and tidy.
3. Spray on some perfumes, fragrance...(You smell good, everyone feel good)
4. Look into the mirror and say: "Oh man, I look damn stunning" before you leave home.
5. Put on ur sweetest smile
6. Brush your teeth after lunch
7. Drink at least 3 litres of plain water everyday...(good for complexion and good health)
8. Make sure to remove your makeup and clean your face thoroughly before bed. (Never ever miss out this part...If you miss to remove your make up for a day, you'll look older by 10days...)
9. Do your mask everynite
10. Sleep before 12 midnite...(before 10:30pm is the best) and wake up at 6:30am

If you have more tips...do leave your comments! Have a great day!

It's been a while....

Wow Wow...Anything new to share? How's my job? How's my life? How's everything?? gee...it's been a while that I didn't update my blog since err...nevermind. I was very busy picking up the knowledge & skills needed for my present job...yeah!! New things to learn, try my best to minggle around with my new colleagues (at least I try ok...hehe!) Life is good...start work at 845am, leave office at 6pm or sometimes 605pm...kekeke! Can still feel the sun is shinning bright when I step out of my work place...(amazing!) Life is kinda boring though...

Sighhzz....Be contented!! Be contented!! I miss the old days, really...

上班的第三天。。。

哦。。很快的，在新公司上班已经第三天了。心情也慢慢调整过来，没想象中那么糟糕啦！加上 有‘小太阳’的鼓励与支持，应该没问题才对，嘻嘻！伤心的是我那班好姐妹失踪了。。还说什么要‘保持联络’，‘传简讯’，‘一起出来见面’。。。哇哇哇，分明就是欺骗我的感情嘛！不过呢，我相信她们没象我这么无所事事，整天在读User Guide，很辛苦的叻。。好多字，好多新的商业逻辑，整个System的构造，设计，硬件和软件的沟通。。。不简单，不简单！亲爱的朋友们，为我加油打气吧！！

New Job Starts today...

Hey everyone...very eager to know about my new job huh? My ex-colleagues, friends, parents have asked me even before I started my job, hehe! (You all are so SWEET larr...) The office is nice, with 'elegant receptionist' sitting in front of the main entrance counter, hehe! Nice pantry, grand conference room for meetings, stylish design for various access eg. Finger Prints Authentication, Scan Card access, Password access, Voice Recognition, Iris Verification...kakaka (the last 2 are self-added la!!) I have my own cubicle, no notebook provided, but with Desktop PC to work. One more thing to highlight, the stationaries are more than 50 items...Gosh, there are some which I don't even know what's it like...hehe! Nothing much to complain la, so complete and well equip...

Now come to the personal feelings & emotions, I somehow felt 'lonely'...Have to start all over again, knowing and working with strangers. Colleagues are ok lor...Nothing much to talk about though...mainly on work related issues only. I spent my day reading the manuals, trying to understand the system, work flow, terminology used...I can't access to yahoo, hotmail, MSN...BUT luckily I can still BLOG!!! Hahaha...(so funny!) What I can say is God is good all the time!!

Well, that's about my working life now...hopefully can write something more 'Happy' in time to come! Have a good weekend :-)

Steamboat for dinner & Drinking session at Long Bar!

Well..well..We visited the steamboat shop again...last time we had porridge soup based, this time we had the 'hot & spicy' plus 'chicken soup' based.

Continue....

Friday, 1st September,2006...

Friday, 1st Sep,2006 - What is so special about it? Well, it's the first day of the month of September...(bullshit!) Well, it only happens once in every year...(crappe!!) Ok Ok...It was the day whereby my sweetest colleagues organised a Farewell Dinner for me AND...pre-celebrated Diana's birthday, hehe!! (That was meant to be a surprised!!) All gals wore 'pink' coincidently, we really didn't plan ahead...Beautiful photos were taken before Woan Ling went back to hometown for the weekend...(luckily we have 2 camera men, keke!)

一通电话。。。

好久没接到他打来的电话。。。今早很意外的看着他的名字在我手机的荧幕里闪烁着。。。（写到这里，你们应该会以为我是在讲述一位我喜欢或对他有好感的人吧！）错！错！错！大错特错！

他算是我的朋友，教会的长兄吧。。。怎么形容他呢？‘奇怪’？‘特殊’？‘固执’？‘孤僻’？‘神秘’？‘古板’？‘有艺术家的脾气’？噢！我真的不懂。。。这一通电话真的把我弄得头昏脑胀，上气接不到下气！（有那么糟吗？）有，跟他讲电话很辛苦，因为他的理论，逻辑思想跟我有太大的距离。。。唉！

丝路。。。可惜不是你 - （梁静茹）

“爱上了你之后我开始领悟

陪你走了一段最唯美的国度

爱上了你之后我从来不哭

谁是谁的幸福

我从来不在乎

谁是谁的旅途

我只要你记住”

以上的句子取自梁静茹所演唱的‘丝路’。。。这首歌已在电脑里好一段日子了，只是没好好去听这专集。今天忽然心血来潮，就好好把它听一遍。以上的几行句子很熟悉，很贴切。。。感觉很真实！因为他，爱或不爱真的无所谓。。。

“ 可惜不是你陪我到最後

曾一起走却走失那路口

感谢那是你牵过我的手

还能感受那温柔

感谢那是你牵过我的手

还能温暖我胸口”

这一首歌对多数人来说都不陌生吧。。。‘可惜不是你’试想想，在你的一生中，谁曾让你有过这样的感受呢？不后悔曾经一起走过的日子，只可惜相识于不对的时间，相爱于不对的人！有人说：“迟到总好过没到”。。。那么，“曾经有过总比没开始过好吧。。。”

Count Down....2 more days!! 倒数。。。最后两天！

My last day with OE is 4th September, 2006...another 2 more days to go (excluding weekends). Hmm, the feeling is very different and special...(it doesn't mean I wish to leave so desperately la...kekeke) When I recalled back my previous resignation in M'sia, it was horrible and miserable. My reporting manager (which used to be very nice to me) ignored me totally, didn't even smile or talk to me...can you imagine that?? But, I was very free during that last month though...hehe! No farewell party for me, no blessings from my colleagues, no sweet memories captured...What a grief!

I had the most memories with my current colleagues...especially with Michelle, Diana, Leon, Woan Ling (in UOB), Bryan, Beyluen, Shany (in OE)...of course not forgetting Brian & Mark who have left the co. before me...Never ever will I forget the 1 year & 1 month (July '05-Aug'06) time spent with all of you...Thank you!!

Baby Blue Tuesday & Yellowish Wednesday!

Well, yesterday was a 'Baby Blue' Tuesday...Erm, we didn't take many photos coz I went to see doctor during lunch...Managed to take some in the office, but we missed out our 'Bro Blue' ohh :-( Actually Leon wore a dark blue shirt, haihzzz...so 'sayang' didn't take his pic with us yesterday.




As for today, we chose to wear 'Yellow' coz Leon has limited choices of colour in his wardrobe, kekeke!! (Pity him lor, always kena bully...so this time we sayang him a bit la!)



The joy of waiting bus opposite Alexandra Point's bus stop...hehe!

Enjoy our 'Teh Tarik' at Harbour Front hawker centre while waiting for the rain to stop...

White Monday....白色星期一

My current project team members came out with a 'Theme Colour for the week' idea last Friday after the dinner. So, in order to break the 'Monday Blue' concept, we all agreed on wearing 'White' then.

搞笑星期五。。。Happy Friday

上个星期五是‘搞笑’天。。。原因是太多太多在平时无法发生的事， 竟然在一天内爆发出来。。。我的这一班同事好可爱，好天真，好好笑。。。可惜的是，我无法一一把当天所发生的事告知各位，因为实在太多了。。。而且啊，用文笔绝对叙述不出当天的情景及感受，呵呵！无论如何，还是让大家欣赏我们所拍摄的照片吧！！

Last friday was a 'Jovial' day...Reason being, lots of funny act happened on that very single day...I have this group of playful, fun, adorable colleagues...Well, it's a pity that I couldn't describe or explain what had actually happened coz there were too much to be mentioned...furthermore, I hardly can express them in words...hehe! Anyway, do take your time to view the photos we took yah!!


'美味的晚餐' - 红烧排骨，黑椒鸡，Macaroni and Cheese, Cole Slaw, Herb Italian Green Beans, Mashed Potatoes, Corn Muffins...尽在Kenny Roger!


Woan Ling and me....Aiyoo, how come I'm doubled her size garr...:-(


Leon and me...I always bully him one lor...pity him!! keke


Diana & me...the youngest looking gal in our group, hehe!!


Michelle & me...This gal ar...she looks serious only, but has a heart of 'angel' leh...


Our 'giant' dessert after dinner...


Haha...see Leon's expression, like very proud to have 3 beauties beside him...kakakaka!


Happy Friday...Yeah!!


Very yummy oh...lots of Mango cubes...purposely requested one leh!!

我的内心世界多了一个他。。。

自从真正认识他以后，我的内心世界多了一个他。。。一位可以和我分享生活点滴，聆听我内心感受及无时无刻给于我鼓励，温暖及关怀的他！很遗憾的是。。。我们相识太晚，最终只能在原地踏步。有好多话只能藏在心里，有好多事只能放在幻想的世界里！

说实话，我从来都没真正被‘呵护’过。。。现在终于明白那种感受！我喜欢他吗？很喜欢。。。我会爱上他吗？我不可以。。。有时我在想，我真的可以这么坚持吗？我不知道。。。也许有些事根本不需要问，因为知道了答案又如何？顺其自然吧。。。别想太多了！

He entered my heart eversince I got to know the real him...someone that can share bits & pieces of my life, a good listener, always there to give me courage, warmth and care...With regrets, we knew each other at a wrong timing...that's why we can't proceed futher but to stay at the initial stage. Words to be kept in the heart, things that only happen in virtual world!

Frankly, I have never been 'pampered' before...but now I experienced it! Do I like him? Very much...Will I love him? I am afraid I can't...Will I be so firm then? I have no idea...No point asking coz what if I got the answer? Perhaps I should just go with the flow...don't think too much about it!

离职的消息。。。

在这间公司工作将近一年一个月，终于要对它说‘再见’了。。。它是一间让我‘东山再起’，‘找回自信’，‘充满回忆’，‘拥有一群好同事’的公司！真的，很不舍得。。。但，为了生活，理想和目标，我在08/08/2006交上我的辞职信。我只告诉几位同事，家人和朋友。很快的，‘离职’的消息会慢慢传开。

07/09/2006 是我到新公司报道的第一天，也是进入工作旅程的另一章。。。心情固然兴奋，紧张。换一个新环境，接触陌生的人群，面对新的上司，工作岗位，提起不同的责任及重担。。。虽然脑海里常浮现这样的画面，但我一定会‘尽力而为’。。。Go Go!加油!

Finally it's time to say 'Good-Bye' to this company that I've been working for 1 year and 1 month...It helped me to gain back my confidence, accumulating lots of sweet memories, having great colleagues...etc Felt so relunctant to go...but, for the sake of moving towards a better opportunity & prospects in life, I tendered my resignation letter on 08/08/2006. Told some of my colleagues, family members and friends...I believe this breaking news will gradually be spreaded out...

I'll report to my new co. on 7th Sep, 2006 and that'll be another new chapter of my working journal...well, of course I'm excited and nervous. I'll be entering a total new environment, interact with people that is so fresh and new to me, reporting to new manager, handling new job scope abd baring different kind of burdens and responsibilities...Oh man! I'll strive hard for the coming new challenge...Go Go! Alicia...

《浪漫满屋》 Full House...

这是一部蛮旧的韩剧。。。刚看完，一共22集，用了3天的时间。。哈哈！！故事大纲还不错啦，只是有点‘拖’。。。很正常啦，不然就没戏做咯！我喜欢戏里的‘女主角’- （宋慧乔)，她的样子很甜美，好可爱哦！（唉，看着她，我好自卑噢。。。） 好喜欢里面的主题歌，插曲。。。《命运》，《I Think》，《Amazing Love Instrumental》，《Paradiso Instrumental》。。。亲爱的朋友们，有空的话就让自己轻松一下，享受及发挥幻想空间！别让生活如此单调，因为时间过了就不再回头。。。

This is a Korean drama...just finished it not long ago, a total of 22 episodes, spent about 3 days to complete it...haha!! Story line was quite good, but a bit dragging though...as usual rite! I like the main actress (Song Hui Ciao), she has that adorable and sweet look! (Haih...when I look at her, I totally lost my confidence...) I love the soundtrack in this movie...such as ...《命运》，《I Think》，《Amazing Love Instrumental》，《Paradiso Instrumental》...To all my dearest frens out there, spare sometime for yourself and explore your imaginative world! Try to add some spice into your life, remember that there's no way to turn back time...

每一天都是幸福的。。。Happiness in every single day

何谓‘幸福’？有人说：‘只要三餐温饱，那就是幸福。’有人说：‘只要能多活一天，那就是幸福。’有人说：‘只要能找到爱我和我爱的人，那就是幸福。’有人说：‘只要能建立一个属于自己的家庭，两夫妻白头偕老，儿女成龙成凤，这就叫幸福。’每个人都有不同的看法及要求。。。对我而言，只要你自己感觉到幸福，那就是真正的幸福。（内在的感受很重要，因为它最真实。）无需和他人比较及斗争，因为‘幸福’没有一定的模式和标准。

好好珍惜在你生命中走过的人。。。就算不能常常久久，永永远远。至少你门曾经在彼此的生命里留下没人能取代及夺走的回忆，不是吗？

从今天起，常提醒自己说：‘我是幸福的人。。。’

What is defined as 'Happiness'? Some would say:'so long I don't need to worry about my daily meals, that's happiness.' Some would say:'if I can ever live one more day, that's happiness.' Some would say:'if I can find someone that I love and loves me too, that's happiness.' Some would say:'if I can establish my very own family, be with your lifetime partner till old age, seeing your children to be successful, that's called happiness.' Everyone has their own views and expectations...But as for me, I see 'Happiness' when you really feel it deep inside your heart regardless in what circumstances...(inner feelings is the most crucial part as it reveals the reality and truth) There's no need to make comparison with others as happiness has no standards or patterns.

Cherish and treasure those whom walked into your life...even if they can't be with you forever. At least there're great moments & unforgettable memories which can't be replaced by someone else...

From today onwards, always speak to urself that: 'I have happiness in my life....'

相处久了，见面次数多了，感觉也不同了。。。

以上的字句对某些人来说并不陌生，因为他们亲身体验过这种经历。有些人给于别人的第一印象总是那么‘难以接近，有时还耍酷，不多话’等等。但相处久了，彼此之间的距离越来越近时，在一起的感觉变得自然，话题也多了，有时还会不经意的想起对方，因为他间接性的成为你生活的一小部分。。。可是，你很清楚及了解-最多只能‘喜欢’及‘疼惜’对方。

和对方在一起时很甜蜜，感觉轻松自在，心情嘛。。。少许兴奋，忐忑不定，充满幻想，也有点不知所措！你会希望时间可以暂时停顿下来，因为开心的时刻总是特别短，时间过得特别快。。。你不会要求太多，只希望好好珍惜一起度过的每一分，每一秒。因为对方的存在，你感到被疼爱，保护也很幸福。这样的一个人是否在你生命里出现过？我有。。。

Okie...first of all, I have to admit that my translation is very poor indeed. So I roughly concluded the above passage for those who can't read Chinese. The title is simply "When you interact and meet someone more, your feelings towards the person will change...eventually" I believed some of you out there might have encountered this kinda situation where by you didn't really like a person on his/her first impression...you know, he/she can be unfriendly, unapproachable, act 'cool' etc etc..Well, as the time goes by, you'll have a different view towards that person when you have the chance to know and understand the person more.Then, you began to like this person, want to go out and spend time together. You find love & care, the sense of security and happiness...Of course, you don't have to fall in love but to cherish & treasure the time being together. Have you met such a person in your life? Yes, I did...